Blustery day and Mixed Emotions

Well well well, if it isnt another day in the Texas panhandle...and the winds are at it again. BLEH Im tired of this wind.

Robert on the other hand is having some issues, I cant tell if he is sick or just having a rough time here lately, Im so proud of him for starting the patches to stop smoking. But at the same time I think it is really hard for him which causes some pretty bad mood swings, all I can do is stand by and be supportive. I dont think he is trying to hurt my feelings right now, but he seems to do it without thinking and it is hard to take, sometimes I think he resents my presents, but then he acts like everything is fine, very hard for a person to absorb.

Second day with glasses, very strange getting use to this, in fact it helps so much that Im not sure how I was making it before, but still there are parts to it that are hard to get use to and Im hoping it wont drive me insane...


Thankfully I am improving since my horse accidnet on the 13th of Jan, but still not me yet...my mind has gone through some drastic changes, and I do not think we have seen the end of it yet, in fact one of my main reasons for starting this blog was so that I can have good memories of the past few weeks, and even further back if possible. My memory is not completely gone, I recall most things, but in case something happens and it gets worse I want to have something to read in order to keep my thoughts clear and organised. I am happy most of the time, but become sad when I start thinking about losing it completely, it is a hard concept to come to terms with...but praying that is not what happens.So I am going to just stay inside, type maybe read and relax so that I do not have to brave this wind and can collect my thoughts.

On a brighter note, Hot Rod should be in heat soon, within the next couple of days, so fingers crossed for a successful breeding, and a foal for the next year to show in halter classes *fingers crossed* I will try to make it out to the barn the next couple of days to see her and check on her. Then it is back to work this Friday, and actually looking forward to it, that means one more step towards normal...

Now I suppose I will work on some of the other pages and add to my travel section...